Friday, September 27, 2013

Wake me up when September Ends...

There was a friend of mine who committed suicide and yesterday was the second year anniversary of his passing. I always get a bit emotional around this time of the month because of that date. I will never forget him. And in honor, this is a letter that I wrote to him, pretty much on the spot.

Dear Travis,

Whenever I hear your name, I think of you and all those classes we had together in school. Especially our eighth grade year; that was, and always will be, my favorite year. Not only because you were so nice to everyone, and gave the absolute best hugs, but because you were the first guy I liked. Like I had huge crush on you. And here I am, five years later, saying it to the world, and essentially, your spirit. I don't know if you ever found out about that, maybe you did through a mutual friend. I know for sure that I didn't tell you. But yes, you were the first. As we got into high school our friendship grew distant, but never stopped completely. Towards the end of freshman year, you wrote in my yearbook. And you said to me "F-- I have known you for a long time now, and it has gone by so fast, but what's important is our friendship and I hope it stays that way. It has been great going to middle and high school with you. I have really enjoyed it and I hope you have too, and have a wonderful summer! --Travis C."

I will always treasure what you wrote that day Travis. And I don't know what caused you to take your life, and I don't need to know. But know this. I will always keep you in my memories and I will always think of you. You were an important person, I hope you realize that. I will always love you my friend, and if you are here in spirit, just know that everyone else loves you too!

"I miss you, I miss your smile
And I still shed a tear every once and a while
And even though it's different now
You're still here somehow..."

Rest in Paradise,

F.M

Wednesday, September 25, 2013

First day of College!

Today I started college. I guess you could technically say that I started on the 20th of September, but as far as my classes go, today was my first day. And just like every first day of school, no matter what grade you're in, is an overview day. So that was how my first day of school went. Here is a very dry and boring routine that I will follow mostly everyday for the next ten weeks.

First class was Discovering Geology or Geology 100. We went over the syllabus (which tells us the overview of what we're going to study), the grading scale, and what time the lab is open to do our labs. The teacher is funny and nice and the class has about 35 people. Not used to that size yet but I will be. And this is my homework: Copy notes into 5 subject notebook, download a special browser to take online midterms with, and sign into my canvas account to learn how to navigate it.

Second class I went to was Anthropology 101. It was such full, packed room! At least 40 or more people all squished into one room. I felt like a sardine and I was a bit overwhelmed. I got there as fast as I could in ten minutes and almost every seat was full already. Not how I wanted to start my first day of school haha. The teacher is nice, just not like energetic I guess that's the word I'm looking for. But it shouldn't be like that everyday. Here's the homework I had: Look over syllabus and hole-punch it and make a heading in my 5 subject notebook.

Then I had a two and a half hour break where I went all the way back to my dorm and took out the books and things that I didn't need. Then I played some Microsoft Mahjong for a bit before I went to lunch.

The third and final class of the day that I went to was English 101. The teacher is really nice and the classroom had maybe 20 people in it. The smallest yet! And my only homework for the class tonight is to hole-punch the syllabus.


This first week will go by fast. Then I get to go home on Friday! I'm so excited for that!


This is my schedule pretty much for fall quarter. Then it's three totally new and different classes for winter quarter, and the same for spring. College here I come!

Friday, September 20, 2013

Well. I've moved into my college dorm. Now what?

Instead of doing Opinion Piece Friday, this will be all about college. I moved into my college dorm today and it'll probably be around 10 pm-ish by the time this posts itself. I will more than likely be tired from all the activities going on around me. But most importantly, I can now call myself a college student. I find it highly terrifying. It's like, what the heck am I gonna do for the rest of my life? That's the question that everybody wants an answer to, but people, I ain't got no answer! (**Poor grammar for emphasis, I normally don't talk like this). The stories that I write are just that, stories. They are not books. But if I were to put my stories into an anthology type, and publish it, would I earn money from that? If I were to become a fiction writer and actually crank out a whole book, would I make a living doing that for the rest of my life? And if I were to become a photographer, whether freelance or not, would I make money from that? I honestly have no idea. I'm not going to tell people lies or half truths just to get them to stop asking me. College people say that we have two-ish years to decide your major and possible career once in college. But really, it feels like they want you to figure it out before you even get out of your mother's womb. It's pressuring and I hate the feeling.

This morning the car became packed with all my boxes and other things for my dorm room. After we arrived at the building my parents and I started to unload all of the boxes. It took me a little over two hours two unpack everything and by that time I was super tired and hungry. Perfect time for dinner. I went to a Bon Voyage dinner with my parents and after that, they walked me back to my dorm area and we said goodbye. It was hard for me but I will see them next Friday. And I text them a lot. My classes start on the 25th so I will probably do a post then. I really hope I can survive the next nine months haha. I'm already counting down to when my winter break is and it's 21.5 days; way longer than my high school's!

On a hopefully happier note, if anyone sees this post, it means I survived move-in day. Now I must sleep. I've got a long few days of 'Welcome Week' before classes start next Wednesday.

Thursday, September 19, 2013

Not Goodbye, but 'See you Later'

Even though I'll be living thirty-ish minutes away from my home town and have the privilege to come home nearly every weekend, today is still a tough day for me. I am busy packing clothes and other last minute things. I am looking at all my childhood stuff and trying not to get emotional. Tomorrow will be a different story. Tomorrow I'll be living in a strange building that I will soon call home, sharing a room with someone (which is something I've never done before), and having more freedom than ever. It's a lot to take in. Tomorrow I move into my dorm and will be experiencing these things for the next nine months. It'll be uncomfortable at first, but that's okay. I'll overcome it and turn out just fine in the end. Going home on weekends will be a great help though, so I don't go completely off my rocker. Haha. But tomorrow will also be filled with tears, from me and my parents. I'm not denying it. It means I actually care. I will miss my parents like crazy and I'm not ashamed of that. Other kids who say that they won't miss their parents, no matter the distance, are lying to themselves. You say you won't miss home, but that's a lie too. Once you come home during the holiday(s), it'll hit you. I'm not saying goodbye, but more like a 'see you later'.
 
I'll be posting about my move in and other things sometime soon after I get settled in with in the next couple of days!

Monday, September 16, 2013

Summer Movies!

Remember my Bucket List post awhile back and how one of the things on there was to watch a lot of movies? Well, I officially marked the last one. In total, whether it was going to the theatre or watching on Redbox, I watched 17 movies this summer. That's quite a record considering we normally do two or three during a summer. But this wasn't really a normal summer. So here are the 17 movies:

1) Epic
2) The Croods
3) Monsters University
4) Beautiful Creatures
5) Silver Lining's Playbook
6) Despicable Me 2
7) Identity Thief
8) Safe Haven
9) The Heat (saw this on my birthday, so funny!)
10) We're the Millers
11) Percy Jackson & The Olympians: Sea of Monsters
12) Admission
13) The Host
14) Lee Daniels' The Butler
15) Oz the Great and Powerful
16) Turbo
17) The Big Wedding

Wednesday, September 4, 2013

I Got Published! :)

I honestly can't remember if I posted my Better Apart poem before, but I would like to now because it got me published! There's a company called Creative Communications and each season they have a contest for both poetry and essays. And there are grade divisions for each section as well. Once you graduate high school, you can't enter anymore, but they are working on a division for people in college and beyond! So for my poem, I entered it for the Spring 2013 contest and weeks later I got an email from the head honcho saying my poem was to be published in their Spring 2013 anthology book of poetry. I said yes, you can publish my poem! I then paid for the book and it was delivered just yesterday! If you want information about Creative Communications, please feel free to visit the website here!

So here is my poem that I entered! I can now say that I'm a published author!

Better Apart
March 12th, 2013
Age: 17

I’ve had enough,
it’s time for me to go,
stop acting so rough,
it’s my turn to say no.

You can’t control me anymore,
you’re no longer a drug,
you’re not a terrorizing wave pounding a shore,
stop being a thug.

I’m not a pawn in your game,
I’m not allergic to your spores,
I need to reclaim my name,
just take your baggage and go out the double doors.

I’m leaving now,
this is where we must depart,
it’s not a question of how,
It’s that we’re really better apart.

Sunday, September 1, 2013

The Bucket List

Ever since the movie 'The Bucket List' came out in 2007 or so, people have been making lists of things they want to accomplish before they die. But I'm not dying. So I made on for things I want to do before I start college in September because we couldn't afford out traditional weeklong west coastal vacation. And what was originally on the list wasn't necessarily all accomplished. Some other things were thrown on it, others were taken off, or because the weather was just too hot. But here is what the list consisted of:

1) Going to this certain coffee shop with my dad *check*
2) Weekend trip to Leavenworth, Wa *check*
3) Seeing a ton of movies *will do separate post*
4) A day in the downtown part of my city *check*
5) Camping with my dad *check*
6) Spending days just reading *continual*
7) Going to a small little cafe with my parents *check*
8) Going places to take pictures *continual*
9) Spending the day in a neighboring city *check*
10) Going to Palouse Falls *check*

This was just the original list. There are many more things that we did that weren't even added. I'll do another post about those activities. There were so many things on the list that we had to start doing some of these before I even got out of high school. Now I have only nineteen days before I move into my dorm room. In fact, I even have to start packing today. Summertime sure has flown by!